in & out

​In and out of living, at it's border I slip and slide ~
Starting new existence, small persistence, little why.
I often choose invisible or hiding in my cave ~
A numb Confusion controls me, to it I am slave.
Aesthetics my salvation, beauty sweeps me clean ~
Lifts me from the doldrums, height of passionate serene.
Loose myself within it, becomes magnificence as a dream ~
Holds me heart of brilliance, a thriving radiant beam.